I’m a Better Mom When I Work

This {really long, wordy} blog is serving solely as a memory for the day I am sad I have to rush out the door to work, can't make the kids pancakes because I have to drop them off early to latchkey/school, and feel guilt for not being at the bus stop every day to greet them.

I am a better mom when I work. I love working, finding opportunities, and quite simply... the hustle of a career. {Judy Hopps gets it}.

Today I hit ~yet another~ wall. 67 days of trying to be really effective at my job while working from home, schooling my kids, and managing the house while the hubs still reports to work. I am tired. I am over it.

I miss enjoying the moments with the kids, as chaotic as they are.

I miss feeling overwhelmed and exhausted, but knowing I can get it done, without the feeling that in doing so I am yet again ignoring my kids.

I miss when electronics were a fun reward or activity, not a way of life. {and some days, a sanity break for us all when it's raining again and we are out of ideas!}

I'm tired of feeling like I'm giving less than 50% to everyone and every thing. The balance is never easy, but lately it's damn near impossible. I mean, balance is a hilariously optimistic dream at this point.

I miss feeling the energy of my passion and drive.

I'm tired of event after event getting cancelled leaving us with so little to excitedly count down to for the time being. Likewise, I am tired of having to say goodbye to incredible people that have passed away, but we can't grieve together the way we need to.

I miss helping shift mindsets, helping people find the opportunity they've overlooked, and seek out new solutions.

I miss my kids being excited to greet me at the door, then run out it together to rush off to their activities where I'd unwind by watching them excel at their passions while surrounded by the best sports fam I know.

This too shall pass, the world will continue to look different, and life will settle down.

I am energized knowing that there is SO SO much innovation happening right now. So excited that I am having a hard time waiting. That impulsive side wants to dive right in and make big moves now to take this opportunity to innovate. But I know that like many of you, I also need to just take a step back and breathe, find a solution to this temporary madness, and know that this experience is going to shape my worldview in a way that will inspire me to work even harder and make things even better for those around me.

I know you all have my back. You bet I've got yours.

We can do hard {really freakin hard} things.

As one of my favorite leaders, Lee Cockerell, reminded me when I saw him last fall.... Find Happiness.

{Bless you for making it this far. You are the real MVP! }